I'm really not sure what the general consensus would be.
Not understanding how insular I actually prefer to be, it is generally assumed by my parents that if I stay in my room for any length of time to mean one of two things. Either I fell asleep or I'm angry about something. It never occurs them that I just want to be quiet by myself. Usually I get asked what I was doing... as though it is bad to spend time by oneself... as though they can't hold conversation without me... as though I never lived 1500 miles away and only saw them once every 6 months or so.
Usually I'm relaxing in my room after getting home from work because while I am outwardly outgoing at the museum and when out in public, it is really draining. By the time I get home, I'm drained of the ability to viably interact with other humans. I need to recharge my social/emotional battery. Without those (at least) 15 to 20 minutes to read, interact via a chosen medium or mentally process through the interactions from the day, I can not function as a member of the household without being a complete and utter jackass to the other bipeds.
So I ask. Is it more antisocial to physically remove myself from their presence by remaining in my room for the waking hours before and after dinner... or should they be bothered more if I isolate myself by use of my laptop and headphones while sitting in the livingroom with them but not engaging with them in any way?
Physically absense or physically present but mentally absent?
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